His fingers curl in the man's hair and he lets himself get lost in the feel of Ivan's lips. Yes, coming to Beta Colony had been a good idea, no matter how things shake out back on Komarr. His hands remain right where they are when Ivan pulls back. The comment causes him to smile shyly as he rests his head on the other man's and trails one hand down.
"Thank you. I don't think this would be going well with anyone else," he admits and if Ivan doesn't need both hands to remove his pants, then David will try to take one in his for a reassuring squeeze. He can do this with Ivan here to help.
He does not, in fact, need both hands to strip David out of his pants, and returns the squeeze with one of his own -- reassuring and encouraging. Once Ivan's got them down to his knees, he gestures at the bed with his free hand. "You can lie on your back or on your stomach, it doesn't matter. Whichever you're most comfortable with."
"I'll stay on my back. I prefer being able to see you." If only so he can have a better look at the man and see what's happening. Perhaps it will make his nerves worse in the moment, but one glance at Ivan's encouraging expression tells him it's the right choice. He keeps a tight hold on Ivan's hand as he shimmies out of the rest of his clothing and lays back, tugging the man with him.
Ivan goes with him rather than attempting to protest that he needed to focus on what they agreed on; propping himself up on his elbows above David is no issue, especially not when it means he can kiss the other man again. David's undressed, but relaxation could still be an issue. He's here to prevent that.
One of his hands skims down David's chest, fingertips lightly brushing the length of the other man -- not teasing, just testing for overall responsiveness. It won't do to have him not enjoy this, or be in a state of mind not to.
His arms wrap loosely around Ivan and he focuses on the feel of his lips. Idly his fingers press into the muscles on Ivan's upper back. Truth be told, he'd be content to do this the entire session or so he thinks until he feels the man's fingers brush against him.
A small sound of pleasure is muffled against Ivan's lips as he shifts, rocking his hips up toward the touch.
That's exactly what he wants to hear from the other man. Encouraged, Ivan wraps his hand around him to stroke gently -- setting the pace he'll use later, once they've moved on from this. He wants David to be in the right mindset to enjoy this, the right one to relax. He won't do anything he isn't used to until he's sure they can proceed.
And also, he really just likes hearing David like this.
It's strange how freeing it feels to be with Ivan like this. For the first time in David's life, he's concerned about the present moment and not some future he has to have meticulously planned out. There's only him and Ivan and he wonders if this is how it's supposed to feel when he's with a partner. It's a feeling he wishes he could bottle to take back with him to Komarr.
His eyes remained closed as he focuses on the feeling of Ivan's hand, his kissing turning more sloppy the longer he strokes. Slow and steady and with a care David appreciates from the man. His fingertips press firmly into the man's back and he continues to mouth his pleasure against the other man's lips, only rocking his hips upwards when he can't hold himself back any longer.
Eventually Ivan has to pull back, kissing the corner of David's mouth in a hasty apology. But the other man is ready, the way he's moving into Ivan's hand and the sounds he's making. "Alright, David."
It's something he's done countless times before in the course of his job, but Ivan can't shake the feeling of difference to this, but he soldiers past it as any true LSPT would. Instead he shuffles himself down to kneel between David's legs, one hand going to grab the supples and keep them next to him on the bed. He doesn't, again, go straight to the point -- instead his hands massage David's inner thighs, trying to make him as relaxed as possible.
He frowns slightly as Ivan pulls back. The contact is missed immediately and once the man is back towards him, he rests a hand on Ivan's wrist. An anchor, to let David know that the man is here and with him. The massaging helps and his eyes remain fixed on Ivan's rather than what the man is about to do.
"Yes, I do. I'll tell you if I change my mind," he adds before his LSPT reminds him he can say no at any time to stop this. It's a feeling of control he's not used to having in his life and this is the one space he truly needs it.
"Good, just breathe, David--" Is all Ivan says, having uncapped the tube and slicked his fingers while the other man confirmed -- it's cool, even though he'd tried to warm it up in his hands, but he can only hope the other man doesn't find the beginning wholly uncomfortable.
Slipping one finger into the first knuckle, Ivan explains what he's doing and why. "If you try penetration without prepping yourself, it won't be a good experience for anyone. I'm stretching you out so that the toy will fit with minimum discomfort. Let me know when you get used to this, so that I can press it in further. If you're going to be using a larger toy or with a partner, use two or three fingers, depending on size.
It's a strange sensation, not entirely unpleasant just... Unexpected. David's torn on how he feels as he watches Ivan. One hand is curled awkwardly in the sheets while the other fidgets. Is he supposed to be doing something else while the man is between his knees and stretching him?
It's a question David quickly cans.
"Yes, I am. I read the literature," he says. It's given him reasonable expectations of what penetration consists of although he hasn't been brave enough to try it himself. He much prefers Ivan's approach. His breathing remains even as he shifts slightly, testing the feel of Ivan's finger inside him. "You can go further."
"You never know," counters Ivan, "although I'm not surprised you did all your assigned reading." That absolutely is a jab at him being a teacher, but Ivan means it well and fondly besides, sliding his finger in further while his other hand reaches out to catch one of David's restless ones. He intertwines their fingers, squeezing reassuringly.
"I'm going to curl it now," he says, doing exactly that to press at the spots he's been trained should feel good most; everyone is different, though, so he's not sure how David will react.
If his LSPT didn't have a finger in his ass, he'd be more inclined to make a snappy comeback to that poke at his chosen profession. It does serve to help him relax as does the man's hand holding his. He manages a small smile and is ready when Ivan makes his next move.
Or so he thought. The sensation is new and his reaction isn't immediate as the cogs turn and his mind tries to decide where to place it. That lasts for only a moment however when Ivan finds one of those spots. David finds himself clutching Ivan's hand and trying to figure out how such a simple thing felt so damn good. His eyes slide closed to focus on the movement of Ivan's finger and he wonders briefly why he's been having sex wrong his entire adult life.
"Ah -- don't stop. Please," he adds as an afterthought. For the love of Komarr, don't stop.
Ivan's eyes light up at David's reaction, a smile curling over his face at it. So maybe David wasn't such a hopeless case after all -- he'd been a little concerned with his reluctance that maybe they were going to have to do more to make it an enjoyable experience for the other man. But this is a huge leap in progress, and his smile widens.
"Don't worry, I won't unless you don't want me to," is his reassurance. "I'm going to add one more," he says, giving the other man a bit of warning as he adjusts around Ivan's first finger, before sliding in the other one and curling them both. "This is all we'll do before the toy," Ivan explains, attempting to give David as much information as possible.
His LSPT's words only half-register in his mind. The ability to say no at any point is something well ingrained by now in their sessions. His hold on Ivan's hand remains firm and he draws in a breath at the careful addition of another finger. If this is what the man can do with only his hand, David wonders how everything else would feel...
It's then that Ivan's final explanation hits him. "Ah -- this is all?" And then the toy? How would that compare? This felt better than he thought, but shifting it to another unknown has him glancing down with slight unease. "How different will it feel?"
"Different," Ivan confirms, and tries to search his brain for the correct words. "Fuller, I suppose. More ridged, since it you picked a toy that didn't vibrate. But it's got some give, too, so it won't be hard."
He doesn't move now, just waits until David gives him his final thoughts on the matter.
"Different," he repeats. If this is what Ivan's fingers feel like then that... He intertwines his fingers with Ivan's and pulls him closer. That is what he wants, but the urge to kiss the man is overwhelming.
Kissing David is hardly a problem, and Ivan hums against the other man's lips as he does so. He might not be skilled, but whatever David lacks in practical skills he more than makes up for in genuine enthusiasm. Not that Ivan should be noticing that, or caring.
"You've got to stop kissing me first," Ivan says, knowing he has to pull away to continue but not quite willing to do so unless David directs him to. Is it a problem? Maybe, but Ivan's dealt with worse. Probably.
Oh. He hadn't realized kissing might be a problem, but he quickly sees why once Ivan has pointed it out to him. A light flush fills his cheeks as he relinquishes his hold on the other man.
"Yes, of course. I'm sorry, I'll let you... work," he finishes lamely. What else does he call this? The fact that he's visiting a professional to learn about having sex with another man is something he's come to terms with already.
That causes Ivan to laugh, although not rudely, and he indulges himself by kissing him again -- he doesn't mind it at all, really. David's genuine, well. The fact that he's genuine and knows what Ivan is there for and what he isn't there for is terribly endearing. "We can go back to it once we've finished," Ivan promises, pulling away reluctantly, body and fingers.
Ivan re-settles between David's legs, massaging the skin of his thighs idly as he coats the toy with a generous amount. Satisfied, he gives David a nod. "Alright, I'm going to use the toy now," he says, and nudges the head of it against David before pressing it in, not going further than the head as he watches the other man for his reaction.
That's not a sensation he expected. Not after the kissing. Duv's eyes widen as his body immediately tenses at the intrusion. Lubricant or not, it feels strange and almost painful though Duv is unsure if he should contribute that to the act itself or the fact that he's never clenched this tightly before in his life.
"Is it supposed to feel like that?" he asks with a frown and tries very hard not to pull away from Ivan. Why couldn't they go back to the kissing? He enjoyed the feeling of Ivan's lips on his unlike whatever this is.
"Er." Ivan says, pulling back for David instead. "You'll have to be more on what 'that' is, David, or else I can't say."
Had he not prepped the man enough? Discomfort for a first time was hardly unusual, but Ivan had hoped that he'd be a little bit more enthusiastic about it. Surely this isn't a reflection of his skill.
"The dildo, is it supposed to feel like--" he trails off there, floundering for the right descriptor. He hadn't thought he'd have an issue, Ivan's fingers had felt fine enough and he had the man in his arms. Not so far away from him, like they are now.
"Like something intruding." He finishes lamely with a frown. "I don't know why it's different."
Oh God this is about his skill, isn't it. Ivan stops, and removes the toy. "Would you like to go back to my fingers? You're unused to the feeling of the toy, which might be why it feels so uncomfortable. But we can put it off for another day."
Even if Ivan does think that David is, quite possibly, the patient he's had to be slowest with.
"That may help," he answers cautiously, relaxing instinctually now that the toy is out. Is it something as simple as him not being used to the feeling of it? Or...
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"Thank you. I don't think this would be going well with anyone else," he admits and if Ivan doesn't need both hands to remove his pants, then David will try to take one in his for a reassuring squeeze. He can do this with Ivan here to help.
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One of his hands skims down David's chest, fingertips lightly brushing the length of the other man -- not teasing, just testing for overall responsiveness. It won't do to have him not enjoy this, or be in a state of mind not to.
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A small sound of pleasure is muffled against Ivan's lips as he shifts, rocking his hips up toward the touch.
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And also, he really just likes hearing David like this.
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His eyes remained closed as he focuses on the feeling of Ivan's hand, his kissing turning more sloppy the longer he strokes. Slow and steady and with a care David appreciates from the man. His fingertips press firmly into the man's back and he continues to mouth his pleasure against the other man's lips, only rocking his hips upwards when he can't hold himself back any longer.
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It's something he's done countless times before in the course of his job, but Ivan can't shake the feeling of difference to this, but he soldiers past it as any true LSPT would. Instead he shuffles himself down to kneel between David's legs, one hand going to grab the supples and keep them next to him on the bed. He doesn't, again, go straight to the point -- instead his hands massage David's inner thighs, trying to make him as relaxed as possible.
"Do you still want me to do this?"
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"Yes, I do. I'll tell you if I change my mind," he adds before his LSPT reminds him he can say no at any time to stop this. It's a feeling of control he's not used to having in his life and this is the one space he truly needs it.
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Slipping one finger into the first knuckle, Ivan explains what he's doing and why. "If you try penetration without prepping yourself, it won't be a good experience for anyone. I'm stretching you out so that the toy will fit with minimum discomfort. Let me know when you get used to this, so that I can press it in further. If you're going to be using a larger toy or with a partner, use two or three fingers, depending on size.
Still with me?"
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It's a question David quickly cans.
"Yes, I am. I read the literature," he says. It's given him reasonable expectations of what penetration consists of although he hasn't been brave enough to try it himself. He much prefers Ivan's approach. His breathing remains even as he shifts slightly, testing the feel of Ivan's finger inside him. "You can go further."
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"I'm going to curl it now," he says, doing exactly that to press at the spots he's been trained should feel good most; everyone is different, though, so he's not sure how David will react.
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Or so he thought. The sensation is new and his reaction isn't immediate as the cogs turn and his mind tries to decide where to place it. That lasts for only a moment however when Ivan finds one of those spots. David finds himself clutching Ivan's hand and trying to figure out how such a simple thing felt so damn good. His eyes slide closed to focus on the movement of Ivan's finger and he wonders briefly why he's been having sex wrong his entire adult life.
"Ah -- don't stop. Please," he adds as an afterthought. For the love of Komarr, don't stop.
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"Don't worry, I won't unless you don't want me to," is his reassurance. "I'm going to add one more," he says, giving the other man a bit of warning as he adjusts around Ivan's first finger, before sliding in the other one and curling them both. "This is all we'll do before the toy," Ivan explains, attempting to give David as much information as possible.
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It's then that Ivan's final explanation hits him. "Ah -- this is all?" And then the toy? How would that compare? This felt better than he thought, but shifting it to another unknown has him glancing down with slight unease. "How different will it feel?"
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He doesn't move now, just waits until David gives him his final thoughts on the matter.
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"Please. Continue," he murmurs against his lips.
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"You've got to stop kissing me first," Ivan says, knowing he has to pull away to continue but not quite willing to do so unless David directs him to. Is it a problem? Maybe, but Ivan's dealt with worse. Probably.
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"Yes, of course. I'm sorry, I'll let you... work," he finishes lamely. What else does he call this? The fact that he's visiting a professional to learn about having sex with another man is something he's come to terms with already.
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Ivan re-settles between David's legs, massaging the skin of his thighs idly as he coats the toy with a generous amount. Satisfied, he gives David a nod. "Alright, I'm going to use the toy now," he says, and nudges the head of it against David before pressing it in, not going further than the head as he watches the other man for his reaction.
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"Is it supposed to feel like that?" he asks with a frown and tries very hard not to pull away from Ivan. Why couldn't they go back to the kissing? He enjoyed the feeling of Ivan's lips on his unlike whatever this is.
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Had he not prepped the man enough? Discomfort for a first time was hardly unusual, but Ivan had hoped that he'd be a little bit more enthusiastic about it. Surely this isn't a reflection of his skill.
Is it?
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"Like something intruding." He finishes lamely with a frown. "I don't know why it's different."
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Even if Ivan does think that David is, quite possibly, the patient he's had to be slowest with.
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"Is this a common issue you've had with clients?"
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